Today, I understood what living in pain means. – Urvashi

Pranam everyone!

I really really wanted to thank this organization and every soul and cell, associated with this team and especially Sir.

Today, I understood what living in pain means. Today, I realize what looking inward means. I feel so much pain when I understand that I was just living an illusion all my life and all the pain I’ve ever gone through is all my doing.

I now know what living for yourself means. Till now, whatever I’ve been doing, thinking it’s ‘selfless’ has actually been full of my own selfish needs. Now I know why purpose is so important; so that every step you take is towards a greater aspect than you think your survival is. Only if you know you’re greater than you, then you let yourself go with the flow cause you know you’ll flow upwards if you direct your energy to yourself.

It’s amazing to just feel I’ve come such a long way in my mindset even if I wasted so many years suffering. I know it’s just the start of a journey cause I’m still looking for a cause greater than my survival.

Thank you for making me believe that if I can do so much for survival I’ll do so much better when it’s for myself, for my purpose.

Thank you so much for helping me light the real diya inside. I can’t thank you guys enough. I know I’ll need a lot more help now, but it’s a beautiful meaning to just have summarised my life. And now I realize how important samekan is. You guys are beautiful, like magicians.

You guys helped me validate all my feelings and literally showed me the light at the end of the tunnel. I don’t know why it’s called end of the tunnel cause I know it’s going to be a beautiful start to a better life❤️

Thank you.

Responses

While drawing our algorithm, we start with identifying our symptoms. Do we look at our symptoms of today or from our childhood? Our tendencies also seem like they are about today and not from our childhood. How should I interpret this?

You can start with identifying your symptoms today and make your Algorithm identifying your Lack, Tendency and Pattern. It may seem like the tendencies are loud and clear today. This is only because as an adult, you are either more aware of it, or the tendency is more pronounced. However, if you go back to that age group of 7-14, you will find that the same tendency existed back then as well.  

For example – your lack is abandonment and so your tendency is need to prove/ excel. As an adult, you try extremely hard to prove yourself at work, but maybe as a ten-year-old you wanted to make sure that you win a colouring competition or feel worthy by collecting the maximum number of berries or fruits. 

 So, you would notice how the nature of tendency existed even back then – sometimes subtly, sometimes pronounced. It is just a matter of developing sensitivity to recognize it in that time and space. However, you can always work with current scenarios. 

Now that I have made my algorithm and have identified my lack, what do I do with this? Do I have to re-visit my childhood?

In every moment of disappointment – current or past, you can experience the lack. There are two ways to attend to the lack, once identified – 

  1.  You may simply keep your Algorithm/Lack in awareness by writing the events of the current time and go into breathing 
  2. You can revisit your childhood and write about moments that you experienced the Lack/Algorithm and once you have written a few events (in detail), you may lay down and begin to observe your breath. 

In either of the processes, your Algorithm/lack is in your complete awareness and observing your breath after this would only bring an expansion in your awareness. 

After finding my LTP and mapping my algorithm, I can see how I have suffered in my childhood and continue to do so. What can I do to remedy this and reverse my suffering?

 Since you are seeking the cure, you must know that state of meditation is the state of cure. The more you are in this state, the more you move towards light, thus curing your suffering.  

All the things which come into your awareness, must now be attended to by Observing your breath. For process of attending to what has surfaced, refer to Ques no 8 

Now that I have made my algorithm and have identified my lack, what do I do with this? Do I have to re-visit my childhood?

In every moment of disappointment – current or past, you can experience the lack. There are two ways to attend to the lack, once identified – 

  1.  You may simply keep your Algorithm/Lack in awareness by writing the events of the current time and go into breathing 
  1. You can revisit your childhood and write about moments that you experienced the Lack/Algorithm and once you have written a few events (in detail), you may lay down and begin to observe your breath. 

In either of the processes, your Algorithm/lack is in your complete awareness and observing your breath after this would only bring an expansion in your awareness.