Manthan for me was like peeling off an onion in front of a mirror and watching myself shed my own layers of pretense, stubbornness and self-created web of illusions.

Having done the groundwork with my so powerful and loving coach-Tulika during the Chetna module, I was just about warming up to do some very intense self-work with the Master, the compassionate coaches and amazing fellow participants. 

As the week progressed right from the first day, I experienced Sir’s love and humility to nudge, push and guide all of us through the courseware. The all-encompassing algorithm of cure and the intermittent sessions of Sadhna. 

Every algorithm whether on prime emotions or Ego were meant to take us deeper and deeper into our own souls and free our spirit of the dark accumulated over one or several lifetimes. 

The science of cure came alive through the “Spectrum” which, beautifully and comprehensively brought out our life in the classroom by connecting the lack, patterns, tendencies, triggers and symptom to our suffering. Thus, finally leading to pain and mystery. I am now much more aware of my loops and resulting sufferings and can work upon them using the science of cure.  

Several things opened up for me but the biggest of all was that my EGO is my speaking. I get validation and attention by speaking and it’s a cover up for my lack of being abandoned and hence, need to be needed. I also discovered that my knowledge and accumulated information is a cover up for my deep-rooted lack of unworthiness. I could also see my patterns of jealousy rooted into the loneliness and aloofness in my childhood. 

The participants were extraordinary! They opened-up so beautifully and so did I in their presence and in the intent of Sir and coaches. It was the safest place to bare our soul and be naked in our own eyes. There was no judging and no pretense in telling our own truth. Although, sometimes we would get carried away in our stories just to be brought back by Sir to reality –J.  But I felt, completely at home. 

The evenings were always fun and a time to express our creativity and vulnerable side. There were so many hidden actors, dancers and singers in the group that we could easily make a groovy band. 

The final day or grand finale was magical. We presented our learnings to the class in the form of an act and play. Each act was heartfelt, authentic and full of insights. I could not believe that I can be such a good actor, depicting my misery –J. All in all, a fabulous experience. 

I am not the same person having come out of Manthan and I bet this is the case with each one of us. The journey has just begun but this was an important milestone. Looking forward to module 3 and intensifying the thrust of knowing self and getting prepared to serve. Jai Gurudev, Jai Maa! 

Deep Prakash Pant 

Certification Program- Manthan- Coorg, November 2019.

Responses

While drawing our algorithm, we start with identifying our symptoms. Do we look at our symptoms of today or from our childhood? Our tendencies also seem like they are about today and not from our childhood. How should I interpret this?

You can start with identifying your symptoms today and make your Algorithm identifying your Lack, Tendency and Pattern. It may seem like the tendencies are loud and clear today. This is only because as an adult, you are either more aware of it, or the tendency is more pronounced. However, if you go back to that age group of 7-14, you will find that the same tendency existed back then as well.  

For example – your lack is abandonment and so your tendency is need to prove/ excel. As an adult, you try extremely hard to prove yourself at work, but maybe as a ten-year-old you wanted to make sure that you win a colouring competition or feel worthy by collecting the maximum number of berries or fruits. 

 So, you would notice how the nature of tendency existed even back then – sometimes subtly, sometimes pronounced. It is just a matter of developing sensitivity to recognize it in that time and space. However, you can always work with current scenarios. 

Now that I have made my algorithm and have identified my lack, what do I do with this? Do I have to re-visit my childhood?

In every moment of disappointment – current or past, you can experience the lack. There are two ways to attend to the lack, once identified – 

  1.  You may simply keep your Algorithm/Lack in awareness by writing the events of the current time and go into breathing 
  2. You can revisit your childhood and write about moments that you experienced the Lack/Algorithm and once you have written a few events (in detail), you may lay down and begin to observe your breath. 

In either of the processes, your Algorithm/lack is in your complete awareness and observing your breath after this would only bring an expansion in your awareness. 

After finding my LTP and mapping my algorithm, I can see how I have suffered in my childhood and continue to do so. What can I do to remedy this and reverse my suffering?

 Since you are seeking the cure, you must know that state of meditation is the state of cure. The more you are in this state, the more you move towards light, thus curing your suffering.  

All the things which come into your awareness, must now be attended to by Observing your breath. For process of attending to what has surfaced, refer to Ques no 8 

Now that I have made my algorithm and have identified my lack, what do I do with this? Do I have to re-visit my childhood?

In every moment of disappointment – current or past, you can experience the lack. There are two ways to attend to the lack, once identified – 

  1.  You may simply keep your Algorithm/Lack in awareness by writing the events of the current time and go into breathing 
  1. You can revisit your childhood and write about moments that you experienced the Lack/Algorithm and once you have written a few events (in detail), you may lay down and begin to observe your breath. 

In either of the processes, your Algorithm/lack is in your complete awareness and observing your breath after this would only bring an expansion in your awareness.