Learnings from #TriggerWeek

Background: A prompt given by Naveen Sir in his Vartalaap was shared with students. They were given 72 hours to work on the prompt. Students after 72 hours came back on the forum (#triggerweek) with the following conclusion and insights.

Here’s the community’s consolidation from the recently concluded Trigger Week.
We share this with you here, for you to read and stay with each one of them, with your breath. Doing so, as your consciousness will naturally expand, you would discover the resonance with your own loop of suffering.
Then, Turn In.

Prompt #1

Unknowingly every breath that you take – the oxygen is going to those areas where it is empowering the subconscious choices because of which you feel compelled by your tendencies. So the beginning and end is your ability to arrive at Yog Nidra. – Naveen Varshneya (Author of Meditation The Cure)

 

 

Belief: When someone gets the attention that I deserve, I believe that the love I need to receive is somehow diminished because of the other person.

Insight: We all have the love flowing from the universe that is unique to us based on our acceptance and is not related to anyone else.

 

 

Belief: I am worthless and not deserving of love or acceptance. I will be abandoned. If I am abandoned, I will not be able to physically exist (survive).

Ego: Prove my worth as useful & gain that love without which I will not survive.

Insight: These belief are what keeps my choices from being authentic.

Prompt #2

Your addiction to your mother and father and your judgment towards them – not being able to see the pain beneath the judgment – has a direct impact on you and on your relationships. What you are reflecting in your relationship is the lack you created in your childhood and you want that relationship to fulfill that lack for you.
Naveen Varshneya (Author of Meditation The Cure)

 

 

Belief: Everyone that I love will leave me.

Ego: To look for certainty and permanence in a relationship. I will do anything to keep you in my life.
Judgment on parents: they left me alone in this world.

Pattern: Manifest all that is uncertain and temporary.

 

 

Belief: My parents and godparents ignored my ideas, expression, thought process, abandoned me in situations.

Realization: I was seeking appreciation and validation which I never got.  I should have used this situation to learn how to arrive at my purpose.

Shifts: A decision to move forward with work from a new perspective and innovation to revive, new opportunity doors are opening, better vibratory levels – new fears just touch my inner self and disappear.

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Responses

While drawing our algorithm, we start with identifying our symptoms. Do we look at our symptoms of today or from our childhood? Our tendencies also seem like they are about today and not from our childhood. How should I interpret this?

You can start with identifying your symptoms today and make your Algorithm identifying your Lack, Tendency and Pattern. It may seem like the tendencies are loud and clear today. This is only because as an adult, you are either more aware of it, or the tendency is more pronounced. However, if you go back to that age group of 7-14, you will find that the same tendency existed back then as well.  

For example – your lack is abandonment and so your tendency is need to prove/ excel. As an adult, you try extremely hard to prove yourself at work, but maybe as a ten-year-old you wanted to make sure that you win a colouring competition or feel worthy by collecting the maximum number of berries or fruits. 

 So, you would notice how the nature of tendency existed even back then – sometimes subtly, sometimes pronounced. It is just a matter of developing sensitivity to recognize it in that time and space. However, you can always work with current scenarios. 

Now that I have made my algorithm and have identified my lack, what do I do with this? Do I have to re-visit my childhood?

In every moment of disappointment – current or past, you can experience the lack. There are two ways to attend to the lack, once identified – 

  1.  You may simply keep your Algorithm/Lack in awareness by writing the events of the current time and go into breathing 
  2. You can revisit your childhood and write about moments that you experienced the Lack/Algorithm and once you have written a few events (in detail), you may lay down and begin to observe your breath. 

In either of the processes, your Algorithm/lack is in your complete awareness and observing your breath after this would only bring an expansion in your awareness. 

After finding my LTP and mapping my algorithm, I can see how I have suffered in my childhood and continue to do so. What can I do to remedy this and reverse my suffering?

 Since you are seeking the cure, you must know that state of meditation is the state of cure. The more you are in this state, the more you move towards light, thus curing your suffering.  

All the things which come into your awareness, must now be attended to by Observing your breath. For process of attending to what has surfaced, refer to Ques no 8 

Now that I have made my algorithm and have identified my lack, what do I do with this? Do I have to re-visit my childhood?

In every moment of disappointment – current or past, you can experience the lack. There are two ways to attend to the lack, once identified – 

  1.  You may simply keep your Algorithm/Lack in awareness by writing the events of the current time and go into breathing 
  1. You can revisit your childhood and write about moments that you experienced the Lack/Algorithm and once you have written a few events (in detail), you may lay down and begin to observe your breath. 

In either of the processes, your Algorithm/lack is in your complete awareness and observing your breath after this would only bring an expansion in your awareness.