I wonder why I seek Bliss when it is Pain that led me to you, can I not stay with this enchanting state of being?

I am flowing with gratitude towards the grace you have received and shared with mankind. The last few days have been soul stirring; Since, I last attended your workshop in Delhi to the time I got my hands on your book, it has been quite a revelation and a period of solemn transition. Especially Hunting (page 281), though this technique has sorted many cluttered issues and burdens of the past, now by habit it takes you to spheres of life that disclose forgotten chapters buried deep within .

SHUNYA It was yet again the transient phase of 7-0 years that triggered my current state. Your Jaipur workshop weekend offered miraculous healing at home, a lot surfaced and healed but what left me stunned was that in my surrender, I found myself at Zero. It was indeed the most spiritual, most ethereal, absolutely celestial and sublime view of being nothing. Being absolutely Shunya and yet there was an aura so splendid it makes you feel infinite and so complete. The energy that exuded from the formless left me with no thought, no vision, no speech and all I could do was hear a sound, one that echoed in my ears for days. I was in this state for two days and I am fortunate to be with your healing for I feel I could have lost myself.

LONGING Now I want to be with this formless energy at all times but it eludes me; the more I seek the more elusive it gets. When with family or friends, I feel lost like I am not there with them. I hear no sound but that which has left me enchanted. I long to see that light again; I feel thirsty but no hunger, it gets more intimate with every passing moment and the wish to be with myself gets more intense and a nagging conscience that brings me back to reality. Awareness is there, how do I satiate this longing? How do I absorb the energy before it gets murky within?

ANANTATA Who Am I? I wait for months for a workshop in my city or any city nearby just to be with you in this guided meditation. Unfortunately Chennai eludes this privilege. The last time we did this guided meditation your energies just guided us fluidly towards our inner light and that completes us. In the GURU GRANTH it is well explained by Guru Nanak ji, the four stages in which you attain the light and how ego and light cannot co –exist. First step is to expand consciousness which you teach beautifully in NV SWIMMING, this happens so effortlessly through your technique. Second step is to explore the subconscious and emotional body which you have taught us through FISHING; in my life I don’t think it can be taught any easier than this. Third step is acceptance of Karma, my absolute favourite, which you teach through HUNTING.

Fourth step is to kill your ego and you taught this through the meditation.

Responses

While drawing our algorithm, we start with identifying our symptoms. Do we look at our symptoms of today or from our childhood? Our tendencies also seem like they are about today and not from our childhood. How should I interpret this?

You can start with identifying your symptoms today and make your Algorithm identifying your Lack, Tendency and Pattern. It may seem like the tendencies are loud and clear today. This is only because as an adult, you are either more aware of it, or the tendency is more pronounced. However, if you go back to that age group of 7-14, you will find that the same tendency existed back then as well.  

For example – your lack is abandonment and so your tendency is need to prove/ excel. As an adult, you try extremely hard to prove yourself at work, but maybe as a ten-year-old you wanted to make sure that you win a colouring competition or feel worthy by collecting the maximum number of berries or fruits. 

 So, you would notice how the nature of tendency existed even back then – sometimes subtly, sometimes pronounced. It is just a matter of developing sensitivity to recognize it in that time and space. However, you can always work with current scenarios. 

Now that I have made my algorithm and have identified my lack, what do I do with this? Do I have to re-visit my childhood?

In every moment of disappointment – current or past, you can experience the lack. There are two ways to attend to the lack, once identified – 

  1.  You may simply keep your Algorithm/Lack in awareness by writing the events of the current time and go into breathing 
  2. You can revisit your childhood and write about moments that you experienced the Lack/Algorithm and once you have written a few events (in detail), you may lay down and begin to observe your breath. 

In either of the processes, your Algorithm/lack is in your complete awareness and observing your breath after this would only bring an expansion in your awareness. 

After finding my LTP and mapping my algorithm, I can see how I have suffered in my childhood and continue to do so. What can I do to remedy this and reverse my suffering?

 Since you are seeking the cure, you must know that state of meditation is the state of cure. The more you are in this state, the more you move towards light, thus curing your suffering.  

All the things which come into your awareness, must now be attended to by Observing your breath. For process of attending to what has surfaced, refer to Ques no 8 

Now that I have made my algorithm and have identified my lack, what do I do with this? Do I have to re-visit my childhood?

In every moment of disappointment – current or past, you can experience the lack. There are two ways to attend to the lack, once identified – 

  1.  You may simply keep your Algorithm/Lack in awareness by writing the events of the current time and go into breathing 
  1. You can revisit your childhood and write about moments that you experienced the Lack/Algorithm and once you have written a few events (in detail), you may lay down and begin to observe your breath. 

In either of the processes, your Algorithm/lack is in your complete awareness and observing your breath after this would only bring an expansion in your awareness.