I learned how to love oneself beyond any judgments and morality. – Vasudha

Student Name: Vasudha Thakur
Batch: Manthan 9.0
Suffering: Pre-menopausal Menstrual Cramps 

 

Chetna  

Walking through Chetna opened my lack, tendencies, patterns, and my unstable emotions for me. I never realized that our present had so much to do with our past.  

Vedna  

NV Hunting technique helped me work more on myself growing my awareness of my loop of suffering and lack, tendency and pattern. I realized that I was operating through the emotions of loneliness and unworthiness, which led to suffering with the same. came to the realization how creating space and time to work on self was important. I can’t thank the NV Life Faculty enough the way she brought to my awareness, episodes of my past life which had the same patterns which were repeating in present. She also brought forward insights on sexuality and femininity which led to trapped life force energy playing havoc in my life. In the Vedna program, I learned how to love oneself beyond any judgments and morality.  

Manthan  

Manthan program helped me ground emotions of shame, fear, and guilt. Dark and Fantasy are beautiful concepts and techniques which helped in cleaning hidden anger and suffocation which I was not even aware of. I started feeling gratitude towards my parents for all the wisdom and insights they gave which I could never understand until now. The concept of Food and money was so very well explained by the NV Life faculty. However, I feel I need more lessons on this topic for better understanding.  

I can truly say that it was a beautiful journey inward for the last three months,  दबा हुआ गस्सा, jealousy, fear, सब अन्दर  hidden था.  मैंने अपने आप को पहचाना है, (Repressed anger, jealousy, fear, all were hidden inside me. I have now understood/identified myself) and now is the time to work on myself. The gain, in the end, is the transformative pain that I am yet to experience, to feel or see the gain in form of bliss. Time has come to learn and know myself. Immense gratitude to all the coaches and the master coach Naveen Sir whom I hope to meet in person someday.  Pranam Sir. 

 The more aware one grows, the lesser is the impact of unexpected patterns and tendencies which land us in the space of suffering. Learn to expand your awareness and consciousness by learning meditation for health and wellbeing. 

Responses

While drawing our algorithm, we start with identifying our symptoms. Do we look at our symptoms of today or from our childhood? Our tendencies also seem like they are about today and not from our childhood. How should I interpret this?

You can start with identifying your symptoms today and make your Algorithm identifying your Lack, Tendency and Pattern. It may seem like the tendencies are loud and clear today. This is only because as an adult, you are either more aware of it, or the tendency is more pronounced. However, if you go back to that age group of 7-14, you will find that the same tendency existed back then as well.  

For example – your lack is abandonment and so your tendency is need to prove/ excel. As an adult, you try extremely hard to prove yourself at work, but maybe as a ten-year-old you wanted to make sure that you win a colouring competition or feel worthy by collecting the maximum number of berries or fruits. 

 So, you would notice how the nature of tendency existed even back then – sometimes subtly, sometimes pronounced. It is just a matter of developing sensitivity to recognize it in that time and space. However, you can always work with current scenarios. 

Now that I have made my algorithm and have identified my lack, what do I do with this? Do I have to re-visit my childhood?

In every moment of disappointment – current or past, you can experience the lack. There are two ways to attend to the lack, once identified – 

  1.  You may simply keep your Algorithm/Lack in awareness by writing the events of the current time and go into breathing 
  2. You can revisit your childhood and write about moments that you experienced the Lack/Algorithm and once you have written a few events (in detail), you may lay down and begin to observe your breath. 

In either of the processes, your Algorithm/lack is in your complete awareness and observing your breath after this would only bring an expansion in your awareness. 

After finding my LTP and mapping my algorithm, I can see how I have suffered in my childhood and continue to do so. What can I do to remedy this and reverse my suffering?

 Since you are seeking the cure, you must know that state of meditation is the state of cure. The more you are in this state, the more you move towards light, thus curing your suffering.  

All the things which come into your awareness, must now be attended to by Observing your breath. For process of attending to what has surfaced, refer to Ques no 8 

Now that I have made my algorithm and have identified my lack, what do I do with this? Do I have to re-visit my childhood?

In every moment of disappointment – current or past, you can experience the lack. There are two ways to attend to the lack, once identified – 

  1.  You may simply keep your Algorithm/Lack in awareness by writing the events of the current time and go into breathing 
  1. You can revisit your childhood and write about moments that you experienced the Lack/Algorithm and once you have written a few events (in detail), you may lay down and begin to observe your breath. 

In either of the processes, your Algorithm/lack is in your complete awareness and observing your breath after this would only bring an expansion in your awareness.