I Desire….

Desire flows in our body 24/7. It is a sign from the universe that- We are alive

However, we remain imprisoned by our conditioning that desire is to be felt

  • only in the confines and safety of our bedrooms
  • within the rules set by society and
  • only with another person – devoid of another, we find ourselves bereft of desire.

It is allowed to be experienced only when- “I feel loved, and safe”. The denial and suppression of this life force are what causes it to take support of the dark and become destructive.

As we turn inwards, breath knocks gently at the doors of our dormant yet simmering desire and the floodgates open.

Here’s how our participant in one of the ongoing courses experienced the shift.

In the face of this raw desire, he was feeling, morality collapsed. He broke his belief- “I will be accepted only if I am a good boy”.

With the acknowledgment and experience of his hidden desire, he walks towards the Cure.  However, we remain imprisoned by our conditioning that desire is to be felt

  • only in the confines and safety of our bedrooms
  • within the rules set by society and
  • only with another person – devoid of another, we find ourselves bereft of desire.

 


 

Stay tuned for the rest of his discovery.

As he unearths his suppressed emotions and hidden belief around sexuality, the wisdom comes pouring in.

What is the belief blocking your desire? Stay with this question and bring your realizations to the forum.

Responses

While drawing our algorithm, we start with identifying our symptoms. Do we look at our symptoms of today or from our childhood? Our tendencies also seem like they are about today and not from our childhood. How should I interpret this?

You can start with identifying your symptoms today and make your Algorithm identifying your Lack, Tendency and Pattern. It may seem like the tendencies are loud and clear today. This is only because as an adult, you are either more aware of it, or the tendency is more pronounced. However, if you go back to that age group of 7-14, you will find that the same tendency existed back then as well.  

For example – your lack is abandonment and so your tendency is need to prove/ excel. As an adult, you try extremely hard to prove yourself at work, but maybe as a ten-year-old you wanted to make sure that you win a colouring competition or feel worthy by collecting the maximum number of berries or fruits. 

 So, you would notice how the nature of tendency existed even back then – sometimes subtly, sometimes pronounced. It is just a matter of developing sensitivity to recognize it in that time and space. However, you can always work with current scenarios. 

Now that I have made my algorithm and have identified my lack, what do I do with this? Do I have to re-visit my childhood?

In every moment of disappointment – current or past, you can experience the lack. There are two ways to attend to the lack, once identified – 

  1.  You may simply keep your Algorithm/Lack in awareness by writing the events of the current time and go into breathing 
  2. You can revisit your childhood and write about moments that you experienced the Lack/Algorithm and once you have written a few events (in detail), you may lay down and begin to observe your breath. 

In either of the processes, your Algorithm/lack is in your complete awareness and observing your breath after this would only bring an expansion in your awareness. 

After finding my LTP and mapping my algorithm, I can see how I have suffered in my childhood and continue to do so. What can I do to remedy this and reverse my suffering?

 Since you are seeking the cure, you must know that state of meditation is the state of cure. The more you are in this state, the more you move towards light, thus curing your suffering.  

All the things which come into your awareness, must now be attended to by Observing your breath. For process of attending to what has surfaced, refer to Ques no 8 

Now that I have made my algorithm and have identified my lack, what do I do with this? Do I have to re-visit my childhood?

In every moment of disappointment – current or past, you can experience the lack. There are two ways to attend to the lack, once identified – 

  1.  You may simply keep your Algorithm/Lack in awareness by writing the events of the current time and go into breathing 
  1. You can revisit your childhood and write about moments that you experienced the Lack/Algorithm and once you have written a few events (in detail), you may lay down and begin to observe your breath. 

In either of the processes, your Algorithm/lack is in your complete awareness and observing your breath after this would only bring an expansion in your awareness.